NAMASKARA..IN SEARCH OF BANGLORE.............

banglore....a city. now talk every professional of my age either he is in banglore or soon planning to move to banglore. when i first came to this city i was amazed...this is a nice city. i was living intially in RRI(RAMAN RESEARCH INSTITUTE) FLATS with a friend. such a nice city. coming from airport i was really comparing with delhi where i live. nice n green n such a nice climate.cosy intimate neighbourhood small houses talking to each other in strange language.this city has really maintained its real essence.small shops, nice frirndlly people all over,NARIYAL PANI vendors,some women selling flowers is the streets. it was really to be in a different world ...a world of community feeling..a world of sensibility after everything...a world of nice people. i was talking manjul that if banglore rreally want to retain its flavour they should place the big companies outside the city like gurgaon in delhi.
today i came to BANNERGATTA a place where all the big corporates have their offices like IBM n all. this really seems to me another banglore..a banglore which lives in peoples imagination ...with long flyovers...huge buildings....of professionals of my age who really wait for god damn weekend to meet their frnds ..to chat without worries of office n tasks....this is all a new banglore where greenery is vanishing graduallly like the corner small grocerry stores in my small town. i really think who says that we have saved our so called identity inspite of all the changes....wherever i go i find the cities like same..JAIPUR, DELHI, MUMBAI, BANGLORE same food courts ,giant shopping malls..same INOX & PVRs...
people sometime say that guyes of our age are getting americanized i say not exacatlly the entire time is getting allover same ......in this new banglore i went to a shopping mall called FOOD BAZAAR. It was same like anyother mall or in US where they sell everything from backery to meat..everything packed ..where those small meat vendors where i usesd to stand for 10 minutes to get chicken for me. which india we r aheading to ??a place like people repent about their gone bus n train system like MAINE(ELIOT)??a place where a student pays his/her student loan all his life..where you have to have a health insurance ??
where is that banglore ??a place of cosy intimate neighbourhood..a place where people buy flowers every evening for worship..where is that banglore of nice friendlly people..a city where cute old grannies sell VENI or GAZARA( FLOWER ORNAMENT)...small vendors selling NARIYAL PAANI....hotels serving on banana leaf....
where is that banglore???
where??

some realities

i really think some times that why it happens that we see the bitter realities of life and we forget those as the time goes on like i remember that night when i sobbed and cried for all the night when i was translating the interview tapes of HIV+people in india.and i was like "god!! can this happen in my country? moreover in my state...that a couple is drawn out of their village coz they are HIV+....their house is burnt. they had to walk for 800 km to reach delhi....and hitch hiking is not for those poor villagers...when i am enjoying this democracy here in delhi morever in my JNU campus..i really think "is this the same democracy we all share??"

well....its night here almost 11:30...dunno what shd i writ as my 1st blog....???ppl i met....things i cdnt do ??repentence of past...what exactally??
is there any answer to all those question which some tree asked in a lonely night....when there was nothing ..just d wind n a few stars........
when u dont find a meaning at d age age of 25...what 1 shd do ???
well it was me who once said love is nothing but a mutual satisfaction....
do u feel what i feel...we have all i wanted bt nothing we acctually needed ???